but in the end shyness is the disease of perfection – nothing is good enough syndrome among other things – food for thought

on vulnerability well that is the challenge of a life time – we as men are brought up to be strong, tough, macho, self-reliant, independent, not feel, not cry… but after a while some of us learn that we have it all backwards and that it is the vulnerable who are the strong because they let things in and are flexible, not inflexible – but all this is easier said then done my friend – also the social WEb is about trust and vulnerability too –

my friend James Kusel JamesKusel.com/blog said to me tonight during a walk after dinner that i was delusional and that delusion is a drug and then we talked about all the drugs in life there are besides alcohol and natural/chemical addictions there was sex drugs and rock and roll, music, art, books, tv, games, clothes, beauty, religion, politics, anything we agreed that takes you somewhere else… but at the core of addiction the drug is control and fear – and so shyness is about fear of losing control – so give em hell in 2kx and beyond – so brian keep in mine the turtle only moves forward with its head stuck out and the greater the risk the greater the return – stay tuned – i look forward to what mischief you come up in future and beyond and well we ain't dead yet – be you – g-oh